Baby

Need to be told right from wrong,
Mama didn't raise me right. I'd
sit in the crib to await her return
but even in the cries I knew it to
be no use. The cry was to call her
in but all it did was keep the stranger
in her arms here longer because I was
an interruption. A baby was not seen
as setting the mood, sometimes
Mama would come back bleeding from
not properly satisfying, due to a baby
who was hungry. One time Mama
didn't come, it was a man, who rocked
me saying, "baby don't cry" he wore
a uniform, while Mama smiled. I
never saw her smile before, was
this a random man or could this be Dadda?

Voice Within

Glass everywhere to make for perfection,
however for this it exposes all the flaws,
an overbearing voice that remember these mistakes
although this small mind does not comprehend the tone.

Another voice to say what's wrong and what's right
each voice contradicts the other. Who to listen to
and obey, or should the voice within be right?
A child like mind knows what's right and wrong,

Age adds experience but also a hard heart and confusion.
Children may have the voice of reason
in this scary time, why undermine them when times fail us due to
either way, turn out, jump and plea.

Oh you speak? Your mind can give fortifying thoughts?
What is the conspiracy? A  girl being educated makes no sense,
it's soon to be wasted when see meets a man and they wed.
Tis a shame she had a real future.

The ling nights of intense studying, filled with coffee and though of scholars
will simply become a distant memory when she turns to say hello.
This moment that makes it all change to start taking days off work
then putting down the books to make time for her looks.

Each girl will think this won't happen to them especially attending
the high up schools, but they miss that it's unavoidable.
Times say they've changed, but that's only time, not the desire of a girl
who was created for purposes beyond her control.

Through school this was the message given by men and women.
Male professor either said to get away from this, or didn't bother
answering the girls. While the women spoke to both sides, many gave
an impression family wins.

What if there's one who does not comprehend,
for family wasn't what they were given,
but a bunch of foster people who could be
                                                                     bothered?

I call on you when I a voice to tell me I'm crazy,
that everything will work out or I just completely effed it all up.
Above all that when I'm hurt to be by my side even when I
say I want to be alone. In one moment there is a decision to stay
                                                                                                                   or go.
In that moment  S T A Y, but that was not yours
I was in a state of confusion and pain, one where I should not
have been left alone. I did not know what to do, although
                                                                                                      you didn't care.
The moment I needed to not be in control, you left.

Embrace the Moment

The way out of a confined space is to break all bounds, to see the underling path

told to be ignored, why go that way? Rather than is life is to be ahead of us, and

not how we see it right now. What crap the teachers tell us about life is to come,

who do they think they are filling our mind with? Life's in the future, and think of the future...

I'll tell you about that future, it is something to be planned for, but if life of now is

not lived then there is no future to be heading towards beside a downward spiral

or an endless life of neglecting responsibilities. Mama never said that was bad - or

maybe mama didn't care enough to say come inside from playing and do your homework.

The young wild and free motto lives on in childhood, but that was acceptable, the age

of reason and doing the necessity is what happens now. Ignore the clothes of t-shirt

and cut off jeans that are considered beach and lounge wear when done with school

and entering the real world. Pick up the pencil shirt and blouse to enjoy the day of hours passing

by while working hard to get the deals done and what is asked of your boss. This could

be the life lived when ignoring the crap teaches tell to not challenge you in their classroom

and let you be someone else's problem. They miss out on the chance to be truly happy for

your success, rather than bitter to see the greater outcome from others who pushed you to be better.

Life is not destined to be one way or another, it is about choices that are made. Ignore the

crap and push on. Or absorb all the crap handed to you and become the one looking at the

future, putting off responsibilities, and keep those dirty clothes given to you years ago and lay

starring at the sky in a bliss of thinking tomorrows another day, when it's ten am but

                                                                                                                                      you just woke up.

One World

Comes a point to know all or question it
is what a skeptist would say, falling for the
things that are told rather than finding the
truth on our own. While trusting the words
that are shared from above and seeking what
is left to be answered and finding the answer
is possibly the conservative. While the liberal
with hear the things and question it but secretly
believe it all. Even with each different answer
or statement the people of our time, hear what's
said and think to go about of lives because
the happenings around us are the problems
of the world, that do not matter for us.

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