Just a Kiss.

That moment when your heart reminds you that there is no going back now
the barrier you knew not to cross you let yourself get caught up. A moment decision
that you did not say no to. Yes, there was a time where as you had to say was this is too far
       that's it. . . but no. You let it happen with his hands on you, having a way with
you that you knew was wrong. Not what the state or others see as a violation because
let's face it it was your idea. Nothing can be said when its yourself who came up with
the violation. No this cannot be. Curled up under the covers holding a stuffed animal
you've had for years and the tears begin in your eyes. A slow trickle remember the moments
leading up to what happened. Thinking the control is all in your hands and that he's the toy.

Silly toy doing all that I ask. That gives you a false confidence. You know what your doing,
at least that's what you tell yourself. This is so boring and we're sitting here and I'm uncomfortable
all I have to do is turn and kiss him and that will change things. Such a silly thought.
Getting physical to pass time. What a waste. What a silly idea. Such a silly girl. No you were
no silly girl. It was all your idea. I turned and kissed you that now you can't stop those
temptations to continue. All I did was a soft invitation kiss that you pull me in hard kissing deeper.
Just kissing. That's all I thought to pass some of the slow moving pieces to this movie. I think kissing
but you have other ideas. Farther ideas. . . But, you had the control right?