What's right?

Trapped of this world of thinking what is right and wrong,
     the body, the flesh, my lust has it's needs. Needs to feel this idea
of pleasure . . . desire. Physical contact that feels
                                                                              so right. And wanted.

Is this love? No. Is there an attraction? Yes. Attraction of looks?
Maybe. Attraction of the person? I don't know. The body
       calls for the feeling it's strong and demanding
it calls when it wants and needs to be addressed. I cannot get it out of
   my head. . . It has taken over my mind. Constantly going

in this fantasy world of ideas, passions and pleasurable moments.
moments that I have been thinking about that are not finally
happening. . . I wondered what they would be like. This fantasy.

                     This is no fantasy though. These action are
happening. I have no will to stop. I keep asking and creating them. They
are on my mind c o n s t a n t l y. I cannot control them. All I
             want and need is to know what he would do to me
when I did what i said to him.
                                                I get no answer.
                                                                          I am the longing on.

              Are these feeling okay or should I stop?
I don't talk about it because I don't want my actions to be know
but he knows. I won't talk about them with him. . . But He knows.